You don’t get ‘em.

I’m thinking, baby, you and I are undeniable
But I’m finding now loves unreliable
I’m giving all I got to make you stay
Or am I just a roadblock in your way?

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I miss those skype conversations. Sometimes.

Damn popliteus muscle.

Wearing the necklace for the first time since a long time. Maybe just tonight.

Have you ever played The Sims 2? It’s really difficult to make friends with sims that have a negative relationship towards you already. Most interactions are just taken negatively. It’s pretty scool, the sims still have like thought bubles of the other sim, oribably reminiscing, but they still hate them. I dunno, it’s pretty easy to get two sims from being best friends to hating each other, and it’s just impossible to revert it unless i use cheats.

Real life doesn’t have cheats.

http://thanhzdamanh.tumblr.com/post/22919596782/the-end

That’s really weird, i don’t remember writing half of this. I knew what i was writing, but i guess it just flowed so fast and i didn’t reall yhave to think twice about it.

But why it happened. Who it happened to. How it happened.

Lalala.

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Hearing you actually say it.

If you think about it, the only thing that’s changed about us is the attitude towards each other.

Hmm i don’t know how to start this.. I’m up at 5 am and writing this, so i’m quite tired at the moment.

I just can’t stop thinking about how things are turning out. So we’re not talking anymore, and it’s supposed to help us, but i don’t see it..

Things can be normal, but you just don’t want to, friends don’t need breaks.. Maybe you’re jsut thinking too deeply. It’s been like a month or so since we’ve actually hung out properly. I think i’ve been wanting to hang out, because i just want to see what it’s like, so i would know what to do next. We talked, and when you tell me stuff, it jsut doesn’t have that much meaning unless you’re looking at me when you say it. Do you really want to be friends? Do you really mean it? I can’t see body language online, body language to interpret, and it just makes everything difficult and unsure.

As a result, i’m always unsure of what’s going to happen with us. I’d like to think that it does mean something to you, but you’re doing all the things that suggest otherwise. I end up tryign to talk about it, about how the ‘break’ (seriously, what kind of friends need breaks) isn’t helping, that it’s just making things worse, that it might be too late to be friends again after. You always get extremely annoyed and/or angry when i bring it up. You just don’t get it. it doesn’t work like this. I really want to be friends with you, and i mean a close friend, someone that you genuinely like to hang out with and have fun with. This thing that’s happening at the moment, it’s not working.

Maybe you actually think we can jsut be friends again after this. Maybe you think things can be good. Maybe this is just you making it easier for us to be less than aquaintences. I don’t really know what you are thinking, but you probably don’t ever think about it. There will be a time when i just won’t be bothered to be friends with you anymore. You told me these things are supposed to be natural, but even these natural friendships require effort. Even the best friendships require effort to maintain sometimes. There will be a time when i don’t care about keeping one anymore. The longer this thing goes on for, the more likely i’ll hit it. I care about what we have between us, and always will. I’ll be sad if we drift apart, when i realise we’re never going to be that great of friends. There will be a point where i don’t care about getting our friendship back, but i’ll still be sad. At this point, all i’ll want to do is wait for you to show me that you actually care. You wanted us to not talk for ages, and all i’ll want is for you to show me that it was worth it, that i didn’t care for someone that didn’t care back. Let’s be honest but, you’re not going to do that. I know what you’re like, and i think the effort will be very minimum, or none at all. You’ve got all your new friends now.

Yeah i want to say these things to you, but i never get to say this stuff. You don’t read my blog, but sometimes i wish you did, so you would know what i thought without going into arguments.

There’s one thing i know, but i don’t want to say it, because i’m scared of it. Sometimes we are just close because i try to stay close.

Basically, when i say that ‘it will be too late to be friends’

When i stop trying, things will just end. You won’t start trying, because it’s not like you to. I wish you could prove me wrong.